BEING BROUGHT OUT OF A DARK PRISON BY
THE POWER OF RASA
"PRISONER WITHIN MY SOUL"
my beloved friends and family, I am writing you to tell you that I was once
in a box within my own prison.
When I was three years old my mother kidnapped me from my father who wasn't able to find me until I was almost four. In this time my mom was using drugs, alcohol and cheating on my father. The man she was with at the time molested me.
When I got back with my father I was pretty much numb. My Dad wanted a remarriage but I really protested as I was mad at my mom for what she did to me.
I didn't see my Mother again until I was almost 11 or 12 years old. I remember sitting on the steps waiting for her and wanting a Mom to share things with like mothers and daughters do.
My Step Mom was sick and ended up pregnant when I was 7 years old. I remember having to care for my younger sister as my Dad was in the Navy and my Step Mom couldn't get out of bed on her own so I took care of her. She also had hip, back, and stomach surgery during these times so when my sister was old of enough I was giving her dinner, breakfast and preparing both of us for school as my Dad would have already left. I was pretty much robbed of my childhood.
The parts that I do remember are pretty bad and the ones that I want to know are no longer there. When I got to junior high I was pretty much a loner and because of this I was beaten up. A girl gave me a concussion and 10 stitches. I ended up in the hospital and didn't want to return to school because I knew that it would only get worse as time went on as I knew I was different.
The next year I was again beaten up and had to go back to the hospital because I was the quiet one who kept to myself and wanting to observe while not really saying much. I finished that year knowing that something was happening and I was in for changes... within myself.
I had discovered my gifts by the time I entered high school. I am a natural witch and I felt like I was hit with a ton of bricks and into a brick wall. I didn't know what to do. I kept seeing things and I felt like I was a freak at that time that didn't fit in to this society, and that I was alone.
I was happy to find out that I wasn't alone. I went through that year studying all I could about pagans to learn more about my gifts and my beliefs.
I soon realized after that I was a medium and spirit walker. I walk the spirit paths and try to help those who are in need in crossing over to the other side. In 12th grade I then realized that I wasn't going to graduate because I was lacking one credit because I have a learning disability that haunts me but do the best I can. I went to day and night classes to try to make up for that credit. Meanwhile, I had met my first love. He ended up being my worst nightmare. I was a pagan but he was into drugs and alcohol. I had left home to be with him and I thought he was my soulmate. For so many years I was verbally abused and I ended up pregnant by him and then moved to be closer to my Mom and Dad. We got married because at that time it seemed like the right thing to do.
years went by he got more and more verbally abusive and I became more and more
numb until the November my husband was killed in a drunk driving accident. I
was about to have a nervous breakdown. I thought I had my fill on my plate raising
my son not knowing what i was going to do. I sat there for two days bawling
my eyes out for someone that did that to me but he was all I knew and loved
at the time. I was 18 years old when I met him and he was 32. As the months
went on I became really obsessed with the darkside as I was mad and wanted to
seek revenge for all that's happened in my life. I was so very intrigued with
vampires and dominatrixes at this time as I wanted to have people cause me pain
so my pain would less. As time went on, in December I remember laying on the
couch, and there were dark sprits that tried take me over. I was completely
paralyzed. couldn't move it took all I had to move and get away from them.
Soon thereafter, I prayed for a way out because I knew I was headed on a downward spiral. I knew I was going to be dead as two people in my life told me that if I didn't change my ways I wouldn't be alive much longer. Shortly after that I joined Rasa's Unwashed Pagan Women Yahoo group and within a few weeks of joining this group I accepted her in to my heart and received the Divine Mystical Marriage.
28 years of my life I have never been more at peace than I am now. I still have
tears in my eyes for the fact that I could have died and my son would be here
alone. I now realize that my soul was trapped within me, wanting to be freed
from all the sin that I committed. it was like an angel came and unlocked my
soul to let it fly and be so happy, without a worry and an over abundance of
Rasa, I thank you for coming in to my life and for all that you done. Without you, I don't know where I would be right know. I know that I will continue to grow and follow in your footsteps the best way I know how and to share your church with as many as I can. For you are my Angel, My Guru and My Friend. I will always hold you close to my heart as my son now does as well.
I DIDN'T WRITE THIS TO HAVE PEOPLE SAY THAT I HAVE HAD A BAD LIFE, I WROTE THIS TO SAY I OVERCAME THESE BATTLES AND I SAW THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, AND BELOVED RASA WAS THERE WITH HER HAND OPEN.
AND SHE ALWAYS HAS BEEN.
All My Love,
MAUREEN THANK YOU
What a beautiful testimony! Thank you for sharing it because it will touch other people.
It makes me want to post on pagan groups again, which I used to do more of. If anyone would like to check out the Pagan Group Maureen found me on, please check:
Thank God that I met Maureen and spoke to her!
Yes, God is here to meet anyone and everyone at their need. Whatever it is, we do have the power here, the Anointing, to help everyone. Each person gets the Light and Power on the level they can receive it. Some get born again, some get to betrothal, and others like Maureen, went all the way to the Sahasrara, the highest place. It is mystical marriage.
Such people are truly special and like Maureen, have suffered terribly. All your sufferings, dear Maureen, have paid off. You have reached God and God has reached you! Blessed are the poor, for theirs is the Kingdom of God!
PS - Think of those that are not there anymore, I see them posting on other groups and they are going down the wrong path. They turned their back on God and think they can go their own way. But where we are is Love and Peace and Forgiveness. We may be alone sitting in our homes, as far as people go. But God is here with us.