GREETINGS SWAMI G,
IT IS GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU.
I AM DOING QUITE WELL.

ACTUALLY, I BELIEVE I AM GOING TO ENTER INTO THE STATE YOU PROFESS VERY SOON. GOD TOLD ME A WEEK AGO THAT IT WOULD BE WEDNESDAY, AFTER 7 PM, WHICH IS TONIGHT. SO IT IS PROPITIOUS YOU WROTE ME. THANK YOU.

MY DREAMS HAVE INDICATED, A FEW DAYS AGO, THAT GOD HAD CLEANSED ABOUT 75% OF MY SOUL THAT WAS 'WILDERNESS'. (WILDNERNESS BEING UNCULTURED, UNTAMED UNACCESSABLE) GOD HAD SENT SOMEONE TO WORK ON ME IN THE FORM OF A MALE. I HAVE NOT BEEN SHOWN THE IDENTITY OF THIS PERSON, BUT OBVIOUSLY THERE IS A STRONG CONNECTION WITH YOU. THIS SAINT HAS BEEN WORKING INSIDE ME FOR ABOUT A WEEK, QUITE STRONGLY. WHAT IT IS IS A TRANSITION. TRANSITIONS ARE HARD-WON AND SOMEWHAT STRENUOUS, BUT I AM PAST THE STRAIN OF IT NOW. I HAVE SUCCUMBED TO A NEW WAY OF THINKING, FEELING AND ACTING. IT IS YOUR WAY, THE WAY OF THE NONDUAL SAINTS. IT IS NEW TO ME, EXCEPT FOR THE FEW MONTHS I HAD IT IN 1982. YES, I MUST GIVE UP CLINGING TO SUFFERING AND ITS MERITS, TO ALL THE EXERCISES OF MY RELIGIOUS LIFE, AND JUST RELEASE EVERYTHING. GOD SAID THIS TO ME ABOUT HOLY COMMUNION. I SAID, 'LORD, WILL IT BE A BAD THING TO GIVE UP THE BL. SACRAMENT?' (MEANING SAYING MASS DAILY) AND GOD ANSWERED, 'RIGHT NOW, YOU ARE THE BLESSED SACRAMENT. '

THEN I UNDERSTOOD WHY, WHEN NITYANANDA MARRIED ME A FEW MONTHS AGO, ABOUT 200 SOULS IN PURGATORY WERE LIFTED INSTANTANEOUSLY. NOW IT WOULD TAKE ME YEARS OF SAYNG MASS TO GET THAT MANY SOULS LIFTED - BUT IT WAS DONE IN AN INSTANT. WHY? BECAUSE NITYANANDA IS THE BLESSED SACRAMENT, AND WHEN HE MARRIED ME, THIS GREAT SACRAMENT WAS RELEASED TO NUMEROUS SOULS. IT IS NOT EASY FOR A PERSON TO CHANGE ALL THEIR IDEALS AND THOUGHT PATTERNS INSTANTLY, BUT I AM DOING VERY WELL, BECAUSE THIS NONDUAL BUSINESS HAS BEEN LIVING SIDE-BY-SIDE WITH DUALITY ALL THESE YEARS. I SIMPLY DID NOT UNDERSTAND ITS THEOLOGY IN A PERFECT WAY, AND SO, I COULD NOT SUCCUMB TO IT, WITHOUT THE UNDERSTANDING.

I HAVE SUFFERED LONG ENOUGH, AND YOU ENCOURAGED ME TO 'LET IT GO.' NOW FOR ME, I FELT MORE COMFORTABLE WITH THE CONCEPT OF 'STEPPING OUT OF IT.' I FEEL MYSELF STEPPING OR RISING OUT OF A PLACE WHERE I NEED TO SUFFER AND THIS HAS TAKEN A LEAP OF FAITH, BY YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT. I TRUSTED YOU, THAT YOU REPRESENTED NITYANANDA AND RAMANA MAHARSHI, AND YOU SPEAK TRUTH. ONE MUST TRUST AND HAVE FAITH IN GRACE. ONE MUST MAKE A DECISION AND OPEN THEIR MIND AND HEART, AND THIS GIVES GOD PERMISSION TO DO WHAT MUST BE DONE. IT IS NOT A HUMAN POWER TO GIVE GRACE, BUT THE HUMAN MUST DECIDE AND RELINQUISH THEMSELVES, AND THEN IT HAPPENS. SO AFTER UNDERSTANDING THAT THIS IS THE RIGHT WAY FOR ME NOW, I WAS ABLE TO DO THIS, AND GOD IS DOING HER PART.

AS I SAID, I AM THINKING YOUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS AND ADJUSTING TO IT. IT IS A NEW ACCEPTANCE OF GOD - ONE THAT I HAD A SHORT WHILE AND THEN WAS LOST, AND RETURNED IN A PARTIAL WAY. OH, WHAT A RELIEF THAT I DO NOT HAVE TO SUFFER ALL THE TIME! THAT WAS THE HARDEST THING TO GIVE UP. BUT ONCE, GIVING UP THE NEED OF IT, IT HAPPENED QUICKLY. NOW THIS NEW STATE WILL TAKE HOLD OF ME VERY SOON. AFTER IT IS ALL SETTLED IN, I INTEND TO WRITE AN ARTICLE CALLED 'FROM STIGMATA TO NIRVANA.'

IT IS VERY INTERESTING, BUT WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO STAY WHERE I AM IS TO RESIST OLD THOUGHTS - ALL THE MYRIAD OF OLD THEOLOGY - JUST LET IT ALL GO, AND REST IN THE RESURRECTION. THIS BY NO MEANS NEGATES THE PAST. THAT IS WHY I WAS UPSET - BECAUSE THE PAST WAS BEING DISPARAGED. BUT AS SOON AS I WAS CONVINCED THE PAST WAS THE PAST, AND I HAD TO MOVE ON, THAT THIS WAS THE NIRVANA OR OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN I WAS PROMISED - I WAS ABLE TO MAKE THE TRANSITION. IN THE PRAYER FOR JESUS' STIGMATA THERE ARE TWO SIDES OF THE COIN - THE GRIEF AND THE LOVE. NOW THE GRIEF HAD BEEN IN ME SO LONG AND HARD, AND THE JOY PART OF IT WAS HARD TO ACCEPT. THE REASON IT COULD NOT TAKE HOLD OF ME IS I DID NOT FIGURE I HAD TO MAKE A NEW DECISION - THIS IS THE PART YOU HELPED SO MUCH ON - A NEW DECISION HAD TO BE MADE, LIKE THE DECISION TO BE BORN AGAIN. AFTER A DECISION, GRACE DOES ITS WORK. WHY DID I HAVE TO MAKE A DECISION TO STOP SUFFERING? HAD I NOT DONE THAT YEARS AGO IN PRAYING FOR THAT COIN THAT HAD ON ONE SIDE, GRIEF, AND ON THE OTHER SIDE, JOY? APPARANTLY, THINGS HAVE TO BE RATIFIED AGAIN, BECAUSE WE GROW OLD AND CRUSTY AND OUR BRAINS OR MINDS, LIKE THE JOINTS AND SINEWS, GET ARTHRITIC, OLD AND CRUSTY. I HAD TO HAVE A RENEWAL BEFORE THAT OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN COULD TAKE HOLD. BEFORE I COULD HAVE THE RENEWAL I HAD TO GO THROUGH SOME NEW UNDERSTANDING, FROM YOGA AND BUDDHISM, WHICH YOU PROVIDED. THE CATHOLIC THEOLOGY PROVIDES LITTLE SUPPORT FOR THE 'RESURRECTION POWER OF JESUS CHRIST' WHICH IS NIRVANA, MOKSHA, NIRVIKALPA AND ALL OF THAT. LIKE I TOLD YOU BEFORE, MOST OF THE CATHOLIC SAINTS WERE KNOWN FOR THEIR SUFFERINGS, CRANKINESS AND MISERY, WITH HIGHLIGHTS OF ECSTASY IN BETWEEN. HILIGHTS OF JOY WERE GOTTEN BETWEEN TORRENTS OF TORTURE. THIS IS WHERE I WAS AT, FOLLOWING THEM IN THEIR SANDALS. YOU SAID IT WAS TIME TO GET A NEW PAIR OF SANDALS. SO I DID!

IN THE NEAR FUTURE, THERE WILL HAVE TO BE CLARIFICATION. THIS WILL NEED MY OWN HEAD TO BE TOTALLY CLEAR ON THE THEOLOGY AND SOME STRONG FOCUS. IT WILL TAKE TIME.

RIGHT NOW I AM ON VACATION BY DOING SIMPLE WORK . I AM PROMOTING MY BODYBUILDING SITE, AND THIS IS A NO-BRAINER. WHEN I LOOK BACK UPON THE LAST THREE MONTHS OF WRITING YOGA-CHRISTIAN ARTICLES I AM PROUD OF MYSELF. I BELIEVE I WROTE ABOUT TWELVE GOOD ARTICLES, NOT INCLUDING YOUR INTERVIEWS, AND POSTED THEM PROBABLY A TOTAL OF ABOUT 2,000 TIMES ON THE GROUPS. I LOVE WORK AND THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THE GRACE AND ENERGY TO DO IT.

NOW YOURSELF AND THE SAINT IN LOS ANGELES, SWAMI SIDDHANANDA GIRI, ARE THE LIVING EMBODIMENTS OF THE NIRIKALPA SAHAJ STATE. WHEN I ENTER INTO NIRVANA I INTEND TO SPEAK WITH YOU ABOUT IT AGAIN, WITH A CLEAR HEAD. I AM WONDERING IF I SHOUD INTERVIEW SWAMI GIRI ALSO?

DON'T WORRY, THERE WILL BE NO MORE SARCASM OR GRUMBLINGS FROM ME. LIKE I SAID TO A FELLOW CHRISTIAN WHO WANTED US TO POST OUR SINS ON HER SITE, 'NO THANKS, I HAVE BEATEN MYSELF UP ENOUGH. NIRVANA SOUNDS GOOD RIGHT ABOUT NOW.'

 

WITH MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO YOU, SWAMI G-ONE WITH GOD- I REMAIN, RASA

 

P.S: I HAVE YOUR E BOOK ON MY DESKTOP AND HAVE NOT HAD A CHANCE TO READ IT YET. ANY OTHER BOOK PLEASE BEAR IN MIND, THAT ALL MUST BE TRANSLATED INTO GIANT TYPE FOR ME. ABOUT A 72 SIZE IS COMFORTABLE. P.S.S. THIS MORNING GOD REVEALED TO ME THAT AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE, DR. ROBERT ATKINS, (THE DIET DOCTOR WHO DIED NOT LONG AGO) WAS RELEASED FROM PURGATORY. I WAS INVITED TO THE PARTY THAT CELEBRATED THIS EVENT! THIS IS THE KIND OF STUFF THAT ONCE WAS THE SUM TOTAL OF MY HAPPINESS. WHEN THE JOY OF SUCH THINGS WOULD WEAR OFF, I WAS UNHAPPY AGAIN. BUT NOW, I LOOK FORWARD TO BEING IN THE SAHAJ STATE! HOW CAN WORDS THANK GOD FOR SUCH A THING?