PASTOR'S LETTER
APRIL 22, 2005

CHRISTIANITY & YOGA
WHY THEY BELONG TOGETHER

Christianity and Yoga - can they be One? Can they, in any way, be united? What stands them apart, and what makes them the same? Are they totally different or not? In what way are they different, in what way similar? Is there anything they both agree on completely?

It all comes down to one word: suffering. The religion of Jesus has a profound theology on suffering, yoga has not. (When I use the word Christian and Jesus, I refer mostly to the theology of Catholicism.) Contemplation belongs to both. Renunciation is the same. But Suffering is not something yogis recommend, - they seem to abhor it and teach us how to rise above it. Not that it stops suffering! The world is full of it!

Life is full of it!

Contemplation is in both. This is the vision of God. Both religions teach that to find God, we must pray. To yogis it's Mantra or Japa and chanting. To Christians it's all kinds. There are litanies, prayers of praise, petition, and thanksgiving, personal and public prayers. Prayer, including silent prayer, along with other practices, leads to contemplation, or the vision of God. For yogis, meditation and mantra, along with other things, leads to Nirvikalpa Samadhi, Nirvana, and Bliss. Here, Christian and Yoga are the same.

Renunciation is also the same. You must not have ego. Christians call it pride and selfishness; the opposite is humility and the virtues of poverty, chastity and obedience. The East calls our ego the big delusion, where we set apart a world that doesn't exist, a framework or domain that we create in our minds. We have a fantasy of who we are, but we are not that. Break that delusion of a separate self, and ego disappears. For Christians, it takes a lot to break us of pride and selfishness. We must be humbled time and time again before we are humble.

In the area of sin there is a slight difference. The East sees sin more like darkness and delusion which cause one to stumble and make mistakes, while Christianity sees sin as deliberate acts. (In fact, a rule is that if you don't know it's sin, it is not. You have to understand what you are doing, on some level at least.) The Eastern way is that we must live again and again to evolve to a place where our sinful nature disappears, while the West is we have one chance at it, and what we do in this lifetime is it. It's either Heaven, Hell or Purgatory (Protestants don't believe in Purgatory,) thereafter. At one time, Christians believed in reincarnation, then they voted against it at one of the councils.

Christians say "we are all sinners." But yogis don't think that way. They do not have our heavy burden of "guilt trips." We are taught that we all come short of the glory of God, and even the saintliest of souls had the "devil's advocate" accuse them before they were declared fit for veneration. Yogis are supposed to worship and imitate "living saints," but to Catholics and Protestants, that is a no-no. With Catholics, you only honor them when they're dead, to Protestants, never. (Only Jesus, they say.) They have no registry of saints, and they do not systematically praise their dead saints.

East and West both believe in Paradise or Heaven, as well as Hell and demons, and Purgatory. But Hell and Purgatory is different to yogis, since they believe in reincarnation, and so, it seems to me, punishment is a temporary place of various degrees, where they reside until they are born in another body.

I personally believe that Jesus was teaching Yoga when He ministered. He taught seeing the guru as God, identification with the guru (guru-bhava) and becoming him, transference of the power and identity of the guru (initiation and shaktipat) through Holy Communion, and other types of transmission. He was not a higher form of Judaism, it was another religion altogether - yoga. (With a Matriarchal stamp.) He was probably in India during the "lost years" (twelve to thirty) and there is evidence of that. (Check Vedanta Press in Hollywood.) Of course, Jewish men had no idea what He was talking about, and turned Jesus into the One and Only Incarnation of God - and no one comes to salvation but by Jesus. Jesus taught and said many things that so-called Christians misunderstood. But the thing I want to emphasize most here is the difference - the absolute difference - between yoga and the understanding on Jesus and suffering as it developed after Our Lord died.

In our theology of Jesus, suffering plays an important part. Because of this "dispensation", if you will, we have a sacred place for suffering, and so, for us, suffering is a part of life that has great utility and purpose. I like this point of view because I can use my sufferings as ministry, and help others as well through it. We suffer anyway - why not put it to good use? When I suffer, in any way, be it physical, mental, emotional or spiritual, it all goes first, to help souls in Purgatory. This is called "reparation for sin." I unite myself with my Spouse, Jesus Christ, and receive his infinite merits, joined to my limited merits. Then the reparation carries infinite power, and souls are delivered. My suffering cleanses me and gives me spiritual medals (Lights) which can be seen upon my soul. The Divine Stigmata is the biggest one. It is seen as rose Light coming out of the Heart Chakra. The terrible sufferings caused by love cause the Heart Chakra to dilate, and make it a giant. The big heart then has something most people do not have - compassion. Our heart has to be awakened and enlarged before we can have sensitivity to the pain of others, and truly have charity for them.

I treasure my sufferings as some of the most important things in my life, as they unified me with my first guru, Jesus Christ. We say, to love him, and him CRUCIFIED is the mark of perfection. To love him crucified, means we, as individuals, are also crucified! How else could we be ONE with him? There, on the cross of our unbearable pain, we are helpless, and we absolutely know we are with him - the one we love. The worship of Jesus' wounds has the most bittersweet quality. We learn to identify with each and every wound, from his Crown of Thorns, to his nailed hands and feet, the secret wound on his shoulder where He carried the wood, the terrible Stripes which could have killed him, the Agony in the Garden before his Passion, and last of all, the crem-de-la-crem of all suffering, Divine Stigmata, which is martyrdom. I have found no teaching like this in yoga. No theology of suffering, and no praise of martyrdom. Perhaps it is there, but I have not seen it.

What is there, and extremely powerful, is the thesis of abstraction, that place where one goes to be alone with God. Here yoga is profound, (when I say yoga I include Buddhism, because after all, it came from yoga and India) having points in theology not found in the same depth and detail for Christians. The Atman being worshipped frees a person from all outer forms of religions. Here, Christians admit God is within us fully and completely, yet no one is encouraged to worship the God Within. The Witness Consciousness also explains, to Eastern practitioners, that bonding with the Spirit, not the flesh, lets one see things objectively and truthfully and gives one a great vantage point on life. Equality of Consciousness - where all things are equal in God's mind - I cannot find in Christianity. Man is always on top to Christianity, with animals and others far below, where we humans, as "stewards" have a wide berth with them. That we are the Spirit, not the body is in both disciplines. Both Yoga and Buddhism agree that earthly desires cause suffering, and suffering can and should be stopped. Christianity believes that desires not of God are suspect, and pursuing the things of the world and flesh should be put aside for the Highest: "Only one thing is necessary..." (Magdalene at the feet of Jesus) and "Put first the Kingdom of God, and all things shall be added unto you." And then again, "What profit a man if he gains the whole world, but loses his soul? For what shall he exchange for his soul?" It is agreed in both that God is first, and all other things second.

NOW TO THE SUBJECT OF SUFFERING

Why are yogis and Buddhist so against it, while Catholicism holds it sacred, when united with Christ? How could these two great religions disagree so strongly on a point that affects everyone? In Catholicism, it is said that a mark of perfection is to be totally one with the will of God, that whatever happens we must accept, good or bad. The bad things - even attacks of the devil - God allows for a reason. So all that happens, all calamities, accidents, sicknesses, deaths and so on, must be accepted as the will of God. This is called "uniformity with the will of God."

Yoga deplores suffering so much, that some yogis laugh at social work, saying basically, that let people meet their own karma, you have better things to do. Is this callousness, or are they putting first the Kingdom of God, who is above the human condition, and pursuing it? There is an argument on both sides. On the side of suffering and the Mother Theresa's of the world, there is this:

Without suffering, compassion is not developed. How can you understand the pain of another if you have not experienced it yourself? And if you bore distress with love (not with hate) then it gave you strength and wisdom. There is nothing more terrible than the person on a cushion, who cares only for his own pleasure. The one in the gutter is more likely to save another soul.

Which is right? Should we accept suffering or should we strive to end it and reach Nirvana at all costs? The answer is that both are right. Here is what I have found:

We humans are composed of two things, humanity and Divinity. Our humanity is felt, primarily, in the Heart Chakra, or feeling part. Our Divinity is present mostly in the Sahasrara, the illuminated mind. When we go off to pray, and abstract ourselves, and fully receive the vision of God, we are not suffering. In order to have this vision, in fact, we have to leave behind the things which make us suffer - all attachments and distractions. It is EXTREMELY difficult to receive Enlightenment unless one goes off from family, friends, and all ties. One must be alone with the Alone, for some time, even if it is, like St. Catherine of Sienna, staying in her room at home (meals being brought to her) FOR TWO FULL YEARS BEFORE ENLIGHTENMENT! After the first great experience of God, one continues the pursuit, and growth never stops. At this time, you are above it all. In various states of contemplation, Nirvana, Samadhi, you are to some degree, abstracted from all the cares of the world. The world spins around you and everyone is suffering to various degrees, but you don't feel it. You are FAR AWAY. You are intimate, cocooned and embraced by God and you want and need for nothing else. (I've been there, more than once, for months at a time.) This cannot go on indefinitely. Why? Because, what are we living for? Only ourselves? Does not God want to save everyone? After being with God, we must come down from the mountain, in order to bring this Light and Truth to others.

Now there are two ways of bringing this Light to others. There is the way some yogis prefer, and that is, to remain abstracted as much as possible, keeping some sort of a shield around them, be it physical or emotional, and not letting others get under their skin. This works for some people. They bring what they have to others but refuse to get down "into the dirt and dirty". They might have a few in the circle who protect them from the mob, they might work through writing books. But then there are those who lower themselves to the needy, in a way that by the nature of the job, requires suffering. Jesus went to the people - with no curtain or shield - deliberately seeking out sinners and outcasts - and Jesus LOVED. Is it right to love? Not just in a supernatural way, but in a human way, so that ones loves one's family and pets, and friends? And if they suffer, you suffer? Of course it's right! Jesus loved his Holy Mother, Mary Magdalene, Lazarus, all his friends and disciples, and every sinner there ever was. He loved them enough to suffer for them. Yes, he went to the wilderness to pray and touch base with "Father," but He always came back to love and suffer. Eventually, it cost him his life, paving the way for all martyrs that went after him. You do not have to be abstracted when you are saving souls. An anointing works through whatever state you are in as an individual. The anointing (shaktipat, power, gifts) is given not for your pleasure, but for the sake of others, and it EVEN WORKS IF YOU FALL FROM PERFECTION IN YOUR OWN PERSONAL SANCTITY!

In order to be fully developed, the human must taste both worlds. When you enter samadhi, you must break attachments and be fully absorbed in God. Later, you must descend into the lower world, through compassion, and touch others. In my experience, both disciplines, samadhi and bhakti, (abstraction and love) work one at a time. If you are abstracted, your love is fully absorbed in God. When you love others, that love flows horizontally to them, and then, by the very nature of the act, your mind has to descend - as mind follows action and focus. (Here again, there are variations. Your mind does not descend when giving supernatural love, like shaktipat or faith healing, but it does go lower to give natural love, that which is given in compassion.) Now the vision of God can be lost in pain, even the pain of saving souls. Indeed, the greatest pain I know is fighting to lift souls out of darkness who resist the love of God. If you want to be fully, absolutely and perfectly developed, you must let God steer you to one state, then another, from season to season. In Springtime, your heart grows, and that means suffering. TO LOVE IS TO SUFFER. Then, in winter, your mind grows, and that's by perfect contact with God. These work in symbiosis. The vision of God dilates the heart. Then, charity being given, opens up the mind. I have experienced time and again that after forgiveness and charity, I have had revelation.

I might add one more thing. Nobody, not even Buddha or Ramakrishna, could stay in a trance all the time. Reading Ramakrishna's life I noted that he suffered agonies. Once he was going to kill himself if God didn't reveal Herself to him. Another time, he was going mad with desire to see the tarrying Vivekananda. Bhagwan Nityananda got so angry at devotees, he used to beat them. If you look at all the lives of the yogis, you have to read between the lines. Their legends have made them seem above human life. I believe these legends give a false impression, that their humanity was asleep. These saints, Avatars and Incarnations of God, suffered. They had people they loved. They grieved, they toiled, they cried. They were not spirits or angels, they were flesh. Flesh feels, and therefore, it suffers. For us to think that in order to imitate, say, the Krishnas, the Chaitanyas, the Nityanandas that we must be fully in samadhi all the time is a mistake. No, indeed, I tell you, life is composed of two things. Yes, we try to stay on the upper levels WHENEVER POSSIBLE. It is possible for short lengths of time - for days, weeks or months. Years? I don't think so. You see, this is not Heaven. In Heaven, all sufferings end, but not here. You can reach Nirvana, but world comes back, feelings come back. Then you must work with these feelings to grow a great soul's heart; at the core, forgiveness, mercy and love. To live, to have association with others, means suffering.

Here I have explained the two disciplines I practice, East and West. I am closer to Jesus when I suffer, but when I must escape pain, yoga is my best friend. That is why, to me, both religions merge. I have incorporated into myself the principles of both.

PASTOR'S LETTER
APRIL 12, 2005

FASTEN YOUR SEAT BELTS,
IT'S GOING TO BE A BUMPY RIDE!

A little time has passed since the "shakeup" of the 10th of this month, and logic and sanity prevail.

A few good souls have responded - Steve, Billy, Andrew, Tom, William, (and Priestess Avril) to the tremors of the last few days. All my children, devotees, some brilliant, some articulate, some learning, all seeking - but they are with me. I know that waiting in the wings are more. I also know that many people have been reading the MotherGod site without joining as they were able to look in. Am going to have my webman change that. If I am going to dance for you, I want to see you in the audience.

INSIGHT ON THE MIRACLE

Had an insight. The miracle happened so suddenly. (Don't they always?) First, all day I was being lead to put on Holy Mary's words concerning sex, off the Woman site and onto the MotherGod yahoo site.

I was too busy to do it and the next day, did so. By mistake I sent it to the WomanThouArtGod yahoo site, and then, had to do it again for the other. When I did so the miracle occured. The picture of Mary - just as it is on my site - as well as the text - appeared exactly as the original. This does not happen, but it did. Three people that I know saw it. It appeared at different times on different computers. On mine, right away, and when I looked three hours later, it was gone. My webman - whom I called - saw it on his computer after it dissapeared from mine. Then Billy said he saw it later but I do not know what time. There may be other people out there who saw it, but didn't realize the miracle. My webman is still scratching his head trying to figure out how the technology made it happen. He asked me how I did it. I did it the same way I sent everything else - through the e-mail, where it turns into traditional type, no images. If it is a technical fluke - one that can be explained - it is a fluke that MARY CONTROLLED.

Now further insight on WHY. I realyze now that not only was She saying, "I am here...with you." But She was saying more. Listen. She said, "This message is true. Rasa channelled me, leaving a disclaimer, that her mind and interpretation and vocabulary could be at fault. But I am telling you that this is a message THAT I GAVE AND IT IS NOT FAULTY. (Steven was shaken by the force of the message, and defended me, saying I made a disclaimer that I could be at fault in interpreting the message...Steven, hear this...Mary appeared WITH the message, Her image and words in a marvelous way. She is telling us "this is Me!" (Perhaps the honor was awarded us, in part, because I put most of the apparitions of Mary, known to the world, about 31 of them, on the site, with pictures and stories. It took my webman a full week or about 30 hours to do this...This is done out of PURE LOVE AND DEVOTION, not any kind of earthly rewards.)

Now we know. She is here, She spoke through me TO YOU. OK, why? Why that particular message? When I reviewed it, my immediate thought was, "A lot of people are going to be pissed. This is pretty hard on men." But I do what I am told and now I know the reason. GOD WANTED THE SHAKEUP.

It probably sounds like "ho hum, so what's the big deal? A couple people didn't like the message and got mad and some don't like Christian channelers...so, let them say what they want."

It was a little more than that. I LIKED THIS MAN SO MUCH THAT THE THOUGHT BEGAN TO FORM IN MY MIND, 'LET US GO THERE. LET US TAKE A TRIP, CHECK IT OUT, AND MAYBE START THE CHURCH/ ASHRAM THERE...AFTER ALL, THIS FINE MAN IS DOING GREAT THINGS AND BUILDING COMMUNITY OF ALTERNATIVE LIFESTYLES AND SPIRITUALITY...WE WOULD BE A PART OF COMMUNITY INSTEAD OF GOING COLD TO L.A.'

That's why Mary/God had to POP ME IN THE HEAD.

Let's go into details then you'll see. I will name the Lady and man "Jack and Jill." The man reaches out to me in a loving way. He belongs to Jill, who is far off. I get so friendly with Jack and Jill that I communicate every day for a week. They become the focus of my life. I learn a lot from Jack as he is educated and has lived a full, rich life and is a man of accomplishment. (If he listened, he also learned lots from me.) Is this an ally? "You are not alone any more, he says." He, you might say woos and talks me into emotional bonding. Jill is also soothing, comforting and supportive in her e mails. I feel a warm glow of a mother I never had. (My mother was Hitler on wheels) Ah, the old soldier sighs, "This is family. Spiritual family. I won't find people like this very often. This man understands me. He's strong, a real mensh (he-man, dependable.) I could throw my lot in with him and his group. This could be the answer. Must think about going there."

The next thing that happens is Mary suggests I put the sex interview on the yahoo and all Hell breaks loose. Jill disagrees wholeheartedly with every word, and writes a stern letter. (I forgot to mention that Jack and Jill were my closest confidants on the group. They wrote and answered daily, giving ideas, advise and answers to letters. They took, what seemed to me, loving responsibility. We were a team!) Being confused by Jill's rebuke, I ask God what to say. Jill was abashed by the throttling of men through Our Bl. Mother. They are not all bad, says Jill! (Mary didn't say they were. Only a possible 50%) I did not want to argue with Jill - as she is a great lady, so I am told. It seemed to me that it might not be respectful, (although I will put a man in his place in a split second.) So I asked God what to say. AND GOD SAID:

"Tell her you forgot a p.s. to the message...if you live on a farm, don't let your man go to the barn alone where you keep the cows and sheep."

I doubled over with laughter. I thought it was a joke, my own mind. But God said, no, it was not a joke, it was the truth and put it as your response. Obeying God, I did. So that was the end. Jill did not answer, but immediately took herself off the group and the next day off the other group. I awakened in the morning hearing a man's voice (I am psychic) saying, "I'M GOING TO KILL YOU."

Jack compares me to the Ku Klux Klan, in his letter. This is not Matriarchy, he says. No more calls from Jack, no more e mails from Jill. The honeymoon is over. What had I done? I obeyed God. God split us apart.....WHY?

The vision that I get today is this. God says:

"YOU ARE NOT LIKE ANY OTHER GROUP. YOU CANNOT JOIN A GROUP OR COMMUNITY ALREADY FORMED OR BEING FORMED. YOU CANNOT STEP INTO SOMEONE ELSE'S AGENDA. THEY SAY YOU ARE ALLIES OR PARTNERS, SO TO SPEAK, BUT IT WILL NOT BE THAT WAY. IF YOU WENT TO HIS AGENDA, SOON YOUR VISION WOULD BE BENT (IF SUCH A THING WERE POSSIBLE) TO SUIT HIS VISION. IT MIGHT NOT BE OBLITERATED, BUT BENT, CHANGED, TURNED. THERE WAS A DANGER HERE AS YOU REALLY LIKED THIS MAN AND BELIEVED IN HIM. NOW, WHAT YOU MUST DO IS TRUST AND RELY WHOLLY ON GOD, AND TAKE ON NO PARTNERS. GOD IS YOUR RULER, YOUR DESTINY AND YOU CAN PUT NO OTHER FLAG UP BUT YOUR OWN. ONE FLAG, ONE PRESIDENT, ONE GURU, ONE DEPENDABLE SOUL, ALL UNDER ONE. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CHANNELS GOD. LET THE OTHERS GO TO THEIR OWN GREATEST GOOD. ALL ARE LEARNING. WHERE YOU ARE GOING, NO ONE HAS GONE BEFORE. AS IN THE PAST, IT WAS ALWAYS UNIQUE. LEWIS AND CLARK WENT THROUGH THE WILDERNESS, AND SO WILL YOU. YOU WILL CHART NEW TERRITORY. IN ORDER TO DO THIS, YOU MUST BE COMPLETELY FREE. YOU CANNOT HAVE ANY SORT OF MINDS - NOT MATTER HOW INTELLIGENT, WISE OR EXPERIENCED, ADVISING YOU. THEY ARE NOT GOD. YOU LISTEN ONLY TO GOD, DO WHAT GOD SAYS, AND EVERYTHING THAT MUST HAPPEN, WILL HAPPEN. YOUR DESTINY IS NOT TO BE TRIFLED WITH."

Now, to the next question. William Bond said that some might be angered by a religious Christian, saying they are speaking to God, bringing messages from on High, but using such to exploit the innocent sheep. (My take on his words.) William, perhaps you do not believe in Bl. Mary or Christianity, but hear this. Did not the words of Mary resonate with your own beliefs? Have you not yourself decried the evils of Patriarchy? If you are anything like the great Ashley Montagu, your countryman, then you know and understand how much evil comes from male rule and domination. You understand the abuses - you wrote the books (To the don't knows he has two published books - "Make Love, Not War" and "Gospel of the Godess.") Now a message comes from Mary, saying what to do, in a practical sense, to protect children and women from such abuses. What to do with your infant in diapers, your daughter and granddaughter setting out on dates, and so on. What is it that bothers you regarding the message? Are you mad because it is Mary, or are you mad at what Mary is saying?

Now, on another note - lately I've been speaking with many that are Pagans, Wiccans and New Age. They are mad because I have Christianity in my cosmology. Shall I now apologize to them for loving Our Blessed Mother? If I am big enough to love them, and accept their beliefs, why can't they accept mine? Can't they see that God is in myriad forms? If they can see God in trees, in water and mountains, and in themselves, why can't they see God in The Blessed Virgin? And after I apologize to them, do I have to apologize to the Catholics - and the feminists - for having artistic nude images on my site? I paired many of my own photos with parrallels from Michaelangelo's Sistine Chapel. That didn't cut it. It's still "borderline pornography." No trading links here, with your degenerate art. Ditto with a Holy Mary site link. I must apologize to them for using material off their site and they ARE NOT IMPRESSED WITH MY SITE they tell me. Of course, I am not a traditional Catholic. Who in their right mind could be? But can't they see the good on the site? Why only what they perceive as bad?

Now...to other men like Jack who object to my view on men. I always say to them that I will speak the truth about evil men, and about the evils of men. This is my job! I am fighting Patriarchy. How can I fight Patriarchy without speaking of the evils of men? Those men who agree with me - whom the shoe doesn't fit, will walk with me. They will defend my thesis. If I lived in a wicked Matriarchy (if such a thing were possible) I would assist the man or woman that would want to change it. I am on the side of right, not men or women. I am of God, Who is Truth. DOES NOT PATRIARCHY ABUSE MEN?

My next thoughts:

WHAT KIND OF A WOMAN DID YOU EXPECT?

Men come to me, and then they are shocked because I break the mold. What kind of a woman did you expect? What kind of a woman would God send to fight Patriarchy, the International Government of Hell? Did you expect a wilting flower? A domme who lets you sit at her feet and masturbate, with payment following? It HAS TO BE A WOMAN OF GOD. IT HAS TO BE A WARRIOR AND A WOMAN OF ZEAL AND COURAGE. It cannot be a CEO, a latter-day feminist or Patriarchal saint. It has to be a woman who has broken all the rules, gone where she wasn't supposed to go, and did what she was told not to do. It has to be a wild woman, wild and free IN HER BODY AND IN HER MIND. Why do you get nervous when she preaches? Normal people hold their peace, bite their tongues, hide in the safety of shadows, stay with family and friends and underground culture. Not this woman. She has to stand alone, with others following. Did you expect a woman carefully stroking egos? God is no respector of persons. What did Joan of Arc do?

Did what she had to do. She won. If you expected anything else but this, it was foolish. Joan of Arc wore physical armor. My armor is spiritual and I fight with mind and words and Holy Spirit. The anointing will tell me where to go, what to say. I must be totally free. I cannot be told what to do by people of the world and the flesh. The article on "The Weapons of Women" tells what they are, on the www.womanthouartgod.com site.

That is it for now, until the next communication.

How can you help? Get my URL on as many yahoo groups as possible. I've saturated the femdom scene quite well. Have not yet reached yoga and various women's groups. Look around, get ideas, and help. Send me the groups you've joined and posted on. Recommend me to the group as Guru Rasa. That's an order!

One last quirky thing noticed: Ostara, taken apart, says "TO RASA"

PASTOR'S LETTER
APRIL 7, 2005

JUST SAY NO TO SWAMI MUCKTUP

A short time ago I received a link to a site that speaks about people I was in awe of. Swamis who can't keep their dicks in their pants - ashram leaders kidnapping and torturing competition - people in the guise of religion and holiness, who actually are NOT enlightened, (perhaps have a bit of anointing like Benny Putz) raking in the dough, all under the mask of "We are incarnations of God."

I was shocked, angered, then horrified as I read day by day. My initial reaction was to cuss and denounce. Lucky I waited a day or two, and now, I can speak reason.

A number of things must be addressed. First and foremost, let no excuses be made for banging young girls SYSTEMATICALLY AND FOR A LONG TIME. I feel mercy toward a person who falls down and then repents - if the person he pops is able to consent, is of the age of consent, and is not awed and confused by the power of the seducer. It does not become grievous, it seems to me, until the Swami, Minister, Guru, IS TARGETING CERTAIN VULNERABLE PERSONS, I.E. HIS DEVOTEES, WHO ALSO HAPPEN TO BE YOUNG, NAIIVE AND INNOCENT AND CANNOT RESIST THE MAN OF GOD, AND THESE VICTIMS ARE SYSTEMATICALLY CHOSEN, , KENNELLED READY FOR THE NEXT BINGE.

What I am saying is there are different degrees of sin. There is minor, venial sin or fault. This is not scandal. Let us say two swamis, a male and female, of equal power, more or less, decide they want to do it. They have sex, but later, they feel they have done wrong as they are preaching celibacy and the clients believe them to be celibate. They have, in fact, sworm themselves to God and pledged celibacy. They fail, they repent and try again. No scandal here, no reason for shock. It is human nature.

Another case of failure or human weakness is a Swami says he does not masturbate and that someone of his stature does not need to. He pretends, yet he is masturbating night and day. He is lying, and so, this is venial or small sin. But at least, he is not seducing anyone and it is between him and his hand. OK, it would mean he is not as perfect as he says he is, and it also means his mind may not be as pure as he says, but he is not involving anyone else in his deed. This is doubtful behavior, but not scandal. (And I note here he does his sex acts by himself and does not masturbate in front of anyone nor share his fantasies with devotees or anyone who is not seeking to hear them.)

But what Swami Mucktup is doing is something else. He is getting them to sequester THE YOUNG GIRLS on the floor in one of the ashrams, for easy access by him. (By young they are in their teens and twenties.) The story that sickens me is the thirteen-year old girl from India, whose parents put her under the foster care of the ashram - with two employees her parents, and Mucktup is doing it with her, saying, "Sex with her is good."

I feel sorry for those of his flock who cannot come to terms with what he has done, and try to make sense of it in their minds, coming to no sane conclusions. Some of the men are saying,

"It's alright...he helped them. It's the hypocrisy that is wrong."

Some of the women refuse to believe it happened - though many have come forward and said he did it to them. Some knew it happened - they could not deny it - but take it with a grain of salt. It happened, but Swami also did a lot of good. They don't know the answers. Perhaps it is like the way we look at our parents or other intimates. We know certain people sin, but they are so close to us, so connected, that we cannot bear to judge them. The others, far away, the strangers, it's easy to condemn their sins. But not our nearest and dearest.

I have a few answers here, and I will lay out my arguments briefly. First, sin is sin. What Mucktup did (and other sins the ashram people did under the mask of God, - sins of lust, sins of greed - are wrong and there is no excuse for them. I do not speak of venial sins. I stated that from the beginning. Who is without sin? I explained some things are small, some are big. According to what I read, this is BIG. This is BIG LUST and BIG GREED.

When Mucktup is doing young girls systematically, planning it, carrying it out and this goes on year after year - and he an old man (not their own age) who is a Father/Teacher/Guru/Servant of God THIS IS SIN OF LUST. THIS IS DEMONS OF LUST.

Forget that tantra-shakti bullshit. This is what he was babbling to some of the girls when he was doing them. Tantra is worship of the Holy Spirit. Somehow yogi men, when they can't keep their dicks in their pants (and Western men are now following suit) give credit - to would you believe - the HOLY SPIRIT FOR WHAT THEY DO. If you believe that, I will sell you the Brooklyn Bridge. If anyone comes at you, penis in hand, and tells you the Holy Spirit makes him do it, and he will fill you with it, JUST SAY NO TO SWAMI MUCKTUP.

PART II: JUST SAY NO TO SWAMI MUCKTUP

I have heard enough bull from dickheads and don't- knows who claim that "tantra sex" is a legitimate form of religious worship. Or that somehow, the shakti kundalini (which is the Holy Spirit) is transmitted from Guru to student THROUGH SEX. Men, with sperm backup on the brain, are somehow equating shakti kundalini with getting good hardons, a sort of spiritual viagara. "Be careful of the shakti rising too soon" sounds like they are saying, "Be careful how much viagara you take...too much will make your penis rise and never go down, and make you explode."

Why are these crazy things being said, and are they crazy?

Yes, they are crazy. Why are they being said? Because men are filled with lust, and they will say anything to have an orgy. It is simply male behavior, which is twisting the teaching of Holy Spirit, God, to suit their sex drive. If what they are saying is true - that shakti is somehow transmitted through sex (usually a dirty old man and nubile girl) then WHY ARE THEY SAYING ONE THING IN PUBLIC, AND ANOTHER IN PRIVATE? In Swami Mucktup's books he never, ever claimed that shakti was transmitted through sex. He said that if you GIVE UP SEX the shakti will MOVE UPWARD (through the sushumna canal, through the chakras and ends up in the Sahasrara) AND THIS IS WHAT ALL GURUS SAY IN THE BOOKS THAT I HAVE READ. It is the RENUNCIATION OF SEX that gives a holy person some of their power - not the other way around. Why would a Swami say one thing in public and the opposite in private? BECAUSE HE WANTS TO GET LAID AND HE HAS TO HAVE A LINE. One or more of Mucktup's partners said she GOT SOMETHING SPIRITUAL from the act. If a man has a powerful anointing from God does he have to pop women to save their souls? Another woman said Mucktup told her, while having his "flaccid penis inside her" for one and a half hours (what did he DO all that time?....she says he talked about his childhood!) that something amazing was about to happen - and she says it did!

It was spiritual. If this happened - and I will give it the benefit of the doubt and say it did - then I think it is sort of like Juanita Bynum saying to the audience that their hearts will change - and their hearts do change. People are falling in the aisles, lying on the floor for hours, beating their hearts and praising God. A wise minister tells you what to expect, and then you ready yourself for it, and then you - the faithful - let it happen. Nobody said that God had to be excluded from all sex acts. Perhaps God does slip in occasionally. BUT SEX IS NOT REQUIRED FOR GIVING SHAKTI. Imagine faith healers needing to HAVE SEX WITH THE MEMBERS OF THE AUDIENCE IN ORDER TO HEAL THEM! That would include all the members, of all ages, male and female! But Swami Dickheads are only targeting certain members of the audience, namely, those for whom his dick stands up. THIS IS RELIGION?

As far as "tantra sex," it has always been looked down upon by the greats. Ramakrishna and many others had contempt for "tantra sex" cults. (In fact, he relates a personal experience that taught him a lesson. He was going to "worship Krishna through sex the way a woman would,"...as Ramakrishna was gay...but Krishna/God rewarded him BY MAKING HIM FALL AND BREAKING HIS ARM!) It stands to reason, that if holy souls renounce sex for the sake of God, then how could they be doing sex for the sake of God? It is a contradiction in terms.

Secondly, shakti kundalini does not bring lust. It is not that kind of energy. There's a lot of nonsense being said about it, but this is perpetrated by men in darkness, repeated by women who know nothing. When you come closer to God, it's the other way around. God slowly, steadily, cleanses you of strong flesh needs, sex being one of them. Oneness with God will make you drink less alcohol, smoke less cigarettes, take less drugs, need less emotional ties with people, and all that other stuff. It will give you more faith and love, more integrity and dignity, more faith and confidence and courage, and will lift you ABOVE YOUR FLESH AND MAKE YOU FREE. What DOES make you horny are DEMONS OF LUST. Although sex itself, by its very nature, is not sinful, those obsessed and addicted with it are frequently demonized. In fact, in reading the accounts of Swami Mucktup, I believe he was taken over by Satan through sin. How could that be? Can a holy man be a sinner? Is that not a contradiction in terms? If one is holy, one is not sinning, and if one is a sinner, then how could one be holy?

Please listen carefully. The reason I am writing this is not because of an individual - the man I call Mucktup - (he's been dead for years) but because THIS IS AN ISSUE FOR ALL TIME. There are many Swamis out there - right now - DOING THE SAME THING. There are other sins, also, that swamis and religious are plenty guilty of, namely pride and greed - and we'll talk about that later in the article.

When a man like Swami (or any other person, for that matter)starts to commit sin, it opens him to demons. That is how it works. How do demons have permission to "enter" or enslave us? By our very own acts and will. (There are other ways, which I will not get into here.) I know that Swami Mucktup was enlightened. (It takes one to know one.) Does that mean he could never sin? Does that mean he could not be tempted, or if tempted, impervious to failure? Of course not. Please recall how Jesus was approached by Satan after the forty-day fast, and sorely tried and grieved in the Agony in The Garden. Some Christians think they are impervious to Satan because they are "covered in the Blood." But Satan comes to tempt the holy...they are his principal target. The wicked he already has and does not have to bother with. He knows they are on the way to Hell. Not only can a Christian (or any other Godly person) be tempted, but they can be demonized. (Check the teachings of Bob Larson.) (Later in the article I will speak of ANOINTED SOULS WHO SINNED and enlightened souls who sunk into the flesh for other reasons, and suffered great misery.)

There is a strange belief here, in America, that these gurus who have the power of shaktipat are infallible. I think the gurus themselves encourage this, for obvious reasons. They want believers to build their Church or ashram. If people didn't think you a Perfect Master, or something like that, why would they come to you, support you and give you their money? They believe that you, the guru, are not like normal people, that you are holy, you are powerful... On another note, gurus do not always know where they are at. They may be part of the way to enlightenment, and don't know they aren't there yet. They want to share the belief, with you, that they are all the way to the top. In India they test the gurus before they pledge allegiance to them. (Guruhood is a money-making venture to some that are poverty stricken. Even a few devotees can put food on the table and clothes on the back.) They also take some of what Swamis say with a grain of salt - certainly not believing everything nor doing all that they say! In America, this is a new game. We aren't sure what to do with our "Baba-Zeebas."

Let me now break down what kind of spiritual geniuses there are, and what kind of gurus. Take a look at the words we are dealing with: PERFECTION (what is it?), GIFTS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT OR SHAKTI KUNDALINI and ANOINTING. Let's first talk about anointing and gifts. This is one and the same.

A gift is a power. There are different kinds and different degrees of gifts. If you will look at the nine gifts of the Holy Spirit you will know. Included are discernment, knowledge, understanding and wisdom, as well as the gifts of power - which are healing and miracles.

If God gives a gift GOD NEVER REPENTS OF THAT GIFT. If a guru can transmit shakti kundalini, or do faith healing (which are one and the same) THIS GIFT IS NEVER TAKEN AWAY. If the person falls into sin, they still have the gift. (Sitting in a gutter on the Bowery, they might not use the gift, but it is still there.)

This explains why ministers and gurus who fall into sin STILL HAVE THE POWER OF THEIR GIFT. (This gets tricky....we might say, then why not just give into sin and "have fun," like the Guru who pops young girls? Wine, women and song, maybe? Why renounce everything if once you get the gift, it is never repented? Why not then jump back into all the things you renounced?) Bear with me here and I will answer you.

The next consideration is PERFECTION. Perfection is of two kinds. One is UNION WITH GOD, which is the soul's being joined or yoked, with God. All the good we do makes our souls more beautiful and Godlike. Now many people are JOINED with God but they don't have the other kind of perfection, which may be called MYSTICAL. Mystical union or "perfect union" makes a person consciously see, feel, hear and sense God, with inner and even with outer senses. In yoga, the beginning of this is "krijas." Now, you could be perfect in the first union, that of being yoked with God, but fail in the second union. You could be one with God, but not feel the presence of God. The second union is the hardest to obtain and retain. YOU CANNOT HAVE SINS, MAJOR OR INTERMEDIATE, TO RETAIN THIS STATE, and above that, your mind and heart must be ABSORBED IN GOD and not in the things of the world and flesh.

When Swami Mucktup began sinning with young girls I believe it happened in stages. Addiction to sin can be like that. You commit one, and you seemed to get away with it. Then you did it again, and everything seemed alright. You did not lose your anointing. But two things were happening, that you did not feel.

One, the mystical perfection started to leave you (this is very delicate) and two, the devil began to enter. At first, the devil might be "pleasant" and give you specious or spurious arguments why your behavior is alright. (Later he won't be so pleasant and tells you he owns you and you are going to Hell!)

If you continue on this course of action, eventually, perhaps in days or months, all mystical contact with God is gone. The terrible thing about this is that once this contact is gone, you go more and more toward your addiction, because it makes you feel better now that you have lost God. It REPLACES God, as it were. So you cannot live without this addiction. The devil is now a familiar person, and always excuses what you do, eager to lead you deeper into the pit, and get you to commit other sins and get into more addictions. Now that you have lost MYSTICAL CONTACT with God, you cannot hear the still, small voice within. And so, YOUR CONSCIENCE IS DEAD, de facto. You can't hear it. And so, you do not realize how mucked up you are! (The only way you can get out of this now is to fall on your face before God and repent. If that does not work, you have to have exorcism, plus a firm repentence.)

This what I have just said explains why people said,

"How could Swami give shaktipat, if he was doing that?"

Very simple. Shaktipat transmission is a GIFT. God does not repent the gifts. But Swami lost his personal union, or intimacy, with God, if he was sinning.

That explains why IT DOES NOT PAY TO SIN, and the price of sin is the LOSS OF THE VISION OF GOD.

The person who is addicted to sin is, on some level, a miserable wretch. They might be deluded for a while that they are alright - but take away their fixes and they will scream. That is why sin, once chronic, is so hard to stop. You lost what you had (in this case, mystical union with God,) and this takes it's place. You are afraid to quit the thing that makes you feel good.

PART III: JUST SAY NO TO SWAMI MUCKTUP

"HOW THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN"

How can a person who has been touched by God, empowered and gifted by God, become enlightened, then fall down? Because of our human nature. No matter how high we have been lifted by the grace of God, even to GLORY, that great illumination DOES NOT REMAIN WITH US ALL THE TIME. Roberts Liardon talks about being in the pit of depression for months, and the only time the pain went away was when he got up on stage and the ANOINTING hit him. Gets off stage, desperately depressed again. James Robison, a well-respected minister seen on Trinity, was so plagued by demons of lust that he got a gun and wanted to "blow his brains out."

In the beginning, he had a sweet intimacy with Our Lord, so wonderful that he couldn't wait to get to his room and pray. Later on, something happened and he lost that Presence. He was in the "pit of Hell on earth" for about ten years, all the while, not losing the anointing or gift God had given him to preach. (Read the full story on www.womanthouartgod.com under "Beatific Vision" part II "Contemplative Vision")

Every creature is a composite of God and Matter. There is the HUMAN and the DIVINE. In the holy ones, the Divine takes precedence. The average person doesn't think much about God, but rather concerns himself with day to day life. The saint says,

"Put first the Kingdom of God, and all things shall be added unto you"....and "What profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses his soul? For what shall he exchange for his soul?"

In the average person there is no struggle. The flesh has won. Satan doesn't have to tempt him, he's on the "broad highway to Hell." But those that are born again, initiated, begin the struggle. That struggle is Spirit over Flesh, and Flesh over Spirit. They are two different dimensions. We assume that in the holy soul, Spirit has won. But this struggle goes on forever, until the moment of death. We must understand that souls of God, including the holiest ones, must battle DAILY to say yes to God, and no to the flesh. The higher up the saint might be, the craftier are the demons sent, the more specious their arguments, and the more persistent their assaults. You can bet your bottom dollar that if a soul is a great threat to Satan, reaping more and more souls for God, that person will be TARGETED - not the average person - for attacks by the enemy.

I will give you some examples of ANOINTED SOULS - "GOD'S GENERALS" Roberts Liardon calls them - "Why They Succeeded and Why Some Failed." Roberts Liardon put together a series of video tapes which include twelve of the most anointed ministers who ever lived. Those he relates are John Alexander Dowie, Maria Woodworth-Etter, Evan Roberts, Charles F. Parham and William J. Seymour, John G. Lake, Smith Wigglesworth, Aimee Semple McPherson, William M. Branham, Jack Coe, A. A. Allen and Kathryn Kuhlman. (To check how to order this 12 tape series see www.womanthouartgod.com on the Aimee Semple McPherson article.)

It would be easier to tell you the ones that had NO serious personal problems. They were John Alexander Dowie, Maria Woodworth-Etter, Smith Wigglesworth and Kathryn Kuhlman. Although Roberts Liardon thinks Rev. Dowie had problems with his actions and doctrine, I disagree with him and place him as those who did not fall. The rest were assaulted by demons - inner or outer - and although they were the greatest faith healers of all time - THEY ALL FELL. (This is not to say that the others were not assaulted by Satan. This is saying that whatever assailed them, they had no personal fall that we can detect. And by fall I do not mean they necessarily fell from grace or fell into sin. I am saying they perhaps lost the mystical contact, or intimacy, with God.)

Let's take it one at a time.

Evan Roberts was soley responsible for starting the religious revival in Wales. The entire country, including sports and brothels, stopped business and turned to the worship of God. This spread to the United States (Los Angeles Azusa Street Revival) and parts of the world. But after a real short ministry, he retired forever. The man simply couldn't take it, and within three years, had NINE NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS. Since he quit when he was nineteen, he spent the rest of his long life confused and disoriented on things spiritual. He said HE DID NOT KNOW WHY HE WAS BORN.

Charles F. Parham, the Father of Pentecostalism, started a college to study the power of the Holy Spirit. One of his pupils, a black man, had to sit outside the room, because of Jim Crow laws. William J. Seymour later got the "Azusa Street Revival" going. Charles Parham's career ended when he was accused of molesting young men. William J. Seymour, the "Catalyst of Pentecostalism" did well for a while. There was a spiritual blaze seen coming out of the Azusa building, and firemen were called. But in time, negative things happened, and Mr. Parham, who was now a rival, accused them of practicing withcraft. When Rev. Seymour got married a jealous woman stole his mailing list, and that somehow, shut down his revival. He died in anonymity.

John G. Lake came from a background of great pain and loss. Most of his family died young. He went to John Alexander Dowie and learned healing, and thereafter healed what was left of his family, and also friends. In the end, he went to Spokane, where with his pupils, they healed thousands, making it "the healthiest city in the United States." But early in his ministry, he took a young wife to Africa, where SHE DIED OF OVERWORK. He healed thousands of Africans, but could not save his wife. His daughter said that when Dad took her out for dinner, he left her sitting right there when he thought of how to finish a sermon. He simply got up and left the table to go home. The child had to call him to pick her up. Obviously, the man was obsessed with ministry so much that he could see nothing but that. He did find a new wife and had more children, but the first children never forgave him.

Aimee Semple McPherson was the most unique case. Her "fall," if you will, came from outward stress and grief. After establishing the world's most remarkable faith healing ministry and Temple, she was assaulted by first her mother, then others, in an attempt to take away her Church and its money. The beginning of this "fall" was Mom - negotiating with her staff to take control of the Church. Aimee collapsed and went "blind" for two weeks. Then she was kidnapped and disappeared for a month. Everyone thought she was dead, but she reappeared walking into a little town in the desert of Arizona. A huge campaign to slander her name ensued - that she faked her own kidnapping, ran away with a man, had an unwanted baby and lots of other nonsense. They simply did not investigate her story properly. She had been tied up in a shack all that time and forevermore suffered a stomach ailment from the food she was given. When both her children and Mom got married and left her, Aimee felt so lonely she married the only man who asked. This was after a severe nervous breakdown, where she rung her hands for years. The portly baritone was sued for breach of promise by another woman, and Aimee had to pay. He was actually a whoremaster, and was physically abusing Aimee. Police were called in. Her daughter turned against her, and sued her along with the fifty one other people lusting for her money! Aimee had chronic insomnia and often took sleeping pills. She got a bottle without a prescription and took some of these together with the medicine for her stomach. Something happened from the mix of these two drugs, and she died, at the age of fifty four. The world's most anointed faith healer died of an overdose of sleeping pills!

William M. Branham, a man of "Notable Signs and Wonders" was a Tennessee Hillbilly, was touched by God at the age of seven. He heard a voice in a tree calling him, and this voice came to him again and again, telling him he was to do God's work. Eventually, he had a thriving faith healing ministry, but it didn't make him happy, and he quit. He decided to be a teacher instead of a healer, and that was bad. Mr. Branham simply didn't have enough credentials to teach, and his doctrine was off the wall. He was saying that women were responsible for all sin and death. John Hagee - a minister famous for the ferocity of his anointing - said God was going to "Take Branham out" for the sake of the rest of the brethren.

Rev. Branham had a head-on collision in his car, with his wife dying by his side. His last act was to reach out to her, touch and heal her, and then he himself died.

Jack Coe, "The Man of Reckless Faith," was a mighty man of healing. Oral Roberts said he had the greatest faith of anyone he'd ever seen. He started with nothing, but the ministry made him rich. Somewhat portly in the beginning, he went up to three hundred pounds. He seemed to fight with everyone around him, and there were accusations. Why was he so fat, and was he missapropriating the money coming in? Jack Coe died, at the tender age of thirty eight, of leukemia. The doctor said he had the body of an eighty-year old man.

To me, the saddest case of all is A. A. Allen, because I like him so much. His title was "miracle man." He was given 600 acres out in the desert by a believer, and turned it into a little religious town. (Faith healers made what is the equivalent of millions of dollars in a short time, when people believed in their power.) I found it amazing to see him pray over a man's leg, and that leg, which was shorter than the other, grew to the same size. The man was crying and rejoicing. But Rev. Allen had a drinking problem. It started in childhood, when his bootlegging parents put alcohol in his baby bottle. They caught him drunk driving a few times, and that hurt his reputation. He had woman problems, too. His wife was divorcing him. They found him dead in his hotel room during a tour, with a high level of alcohol in his blood. His liver was shot.

These are the stories I know, and they are not Swamis, but Protestant saints. Nevertheless, it is about anointing and anointing is the power of God, wherever it's at. Here is what we are saying: Anointing and the PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. An anointing, like faith healing/shaktipat, IS A GIFT FOR OTHERS. It may not even work for you yourself. But the personal walk with God, which Roberts Liardon points out, is something else. This is what you must work on - when you are home alone with God. The anointing does not fill you up when you are praying or meditating, or relating to people on a day to day basis. The power is for preaching, teaching, healing, miracles or whatever. It may not affect you at all, except when you are using the power. To have a personal walk with God requires discipline and that thing Catholics call being DEAD TO SELF. Yogis call it renunciation. They all know what it is, but what happens, is somewhere along the line, corruption sets in. If a person has not been tried and tested over and over, and resisted sin, they may fail. It takes tremendous holiness, and great MIND POWER to understand THIS IS TEMPTATION - THIS IS SIN. And so the distinction here is PERSONAL HOLINESS VS THE POWER OF GOD FOR OTHERS... ANOINTING. The first thing Satan does is confuse the person to believe something not true. He's the father of lies, isn't he? So he'll tell a man - like Liardon explained on one tape - how a minister was cheating on his wife. Liardon confronted him and asked what's up. The man said,

"It is alright. I am covered in the Blood."

This is what the devil told him. And to a Swami, such an act would be "transmission of shakti...you are helping her."

Here is a lesson for all of us. How dangerous the path to God is, and how difficult to stay up there without sin! If saints can fall, then it is hard to live the life of perfection, in perfect union with God both in the soul and in the body. Our nature is human and Divine, and God must prevail.